I LOVE MY FRIENDS

FRIENDS

I'm in love with my friends.. I feel completely blessed....

I have the best family and the coolest friends and I don't know why? How am I so lucky?

I'm serious...It's so good to sit here and reflect on how blessed

I am to have all these wonderful people in my life......

These are my sisters and my best friends... Will we ever be closer than we are now?!

How long do we have together until we're all too busy to come to Mom and Dad's to hang out and spend the night without your husbands and family! :)

I'm sure not much longer but holy cow, I know I'll forever look back and think about these days...

We're family we can't get too far!

This is my life long friend/cousin...It gets to a point where you know someone so well you really can't not be the person's close friend... Lacey has always been there! ALWAYS! I've always been the jealous type with her...I've always been jealous of any friends shes ever had that were not me... haha...Our life walk has taken different paths, but it really doesn't matter.

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.....Accountability..... These three I met in college. Heather and I process our life's situations together and connect on that spiritual level.. We totally have similar hearts....Kaycee is that hard truth that sometimes hurts to receive but I sooooo love that she will without a doubt be honest with me. Molly is that quiet conviction, she doesn't have to say anything and I see truth...

These are my very favorite friends...My college buds...Not too girly, so chill, so funny, not too much alike, but still so similar...

Sophie makes me laugh really hard and I just love her disposition and servant heart.

I love one on one time with Marie, that's the way to get to know her..(wanna get coffee a.k.a we need to talk)

Megan has a sensitive heart!

Rachel knows mostly everything...the facts...

I'm so blessed this isn't even it...

Jessica from class...I love her!

and my other friend Krystle from class...

I FEEL SOOOOOO BLESSED...

My heart is warm... Thank you JESUS...

I haven't always had close friends..There was a time when I had what felt like none, but JESUS. I realize Jesus has called us to friends, but I also loved the time without any as well. It wasn't as fun, I guess.. but I did grow in prayer and QUALITY time with Jesus. I would never take it back. After that friendless time was over, I missed it... I missed depending heavily on Jesus for friendship...

So no matter what state you are with friends or with no friends..You're blessed!

Regardless go spend time with Jesus in your room with the door shut and pour out the joys, the longings, the burdens, the prayers,and everything..

Their isn't a better friend than Jesus.

ALIVE

(Sometimes I feel like Jesus wants me to draw in my alone time with Him!)

My time with Jesus has been so ALIVE in the last few days.

Scripture has had that common theme and people I respect have mentioned that theme in our converstion.

TRUST...

Could I possibly be hearing 'this' from You?

Did I really hear 'it' from You?

Over a year has past of my 'hearing' God. I've tried to fight a specific calling for a while now.

I just can't believe this could be from God..

but I feel Him repeatedly saying the same thing in my conversations with Him...

But I'm so scared to believe!

"What if I'm wrong?"

I am constantly asking people how they hear from God because what I feel Him saying cannot REALLY be what He is saying..could it?

I've cried multiple times thinking I've been deceived by the enemy because what I'm hearing just couldn't be right ...(HOW COULD JESUS LET ME BE DECEIVED for so long though?)

NO.

HE KNOWS ME AND I KNOW HIM. HE CAN HAVE MY FEARS BECAUSE TODAY I'M BELIEVING IN WHAT HE HAS BEEN PUTTING IN MY HEART OVER AND OVER. HE WILL BE WITH ME UNTIL THE VERY END AND THERE IS NO FEAR IN BELIEVING AN AMAZING GOD!

"For the Lord will not forsake His people; He will not abandon His People." Psalm 94:14

I cling to His promise!

Jesus, it won't be easy but I'm believing until you say something else! I'm taking the next three days to be in serious prayer..GOD DIRECT MY HEART!

"The Lord will Fulfill His purpose for me, Your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of Your hand."

Psalm 138:8

Jesus, won't You hold my hand!

"For Thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel. 'In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength." Isaiah 30:15

I met with a friend this week and together we are memorizing and dwelling on this verse. She is focusing on the rest while I focus on the trust. The two words go hand in hand.

To trust you must rest!!!

Rest in Jesus Christ because He ABSOLUTELY should be trusted!

He has seen everyday of my life before the first day even happened. (psalm 139)

To rest for me, means instead of thinking about what I should do, I pray in submission saying

"I don't know, but you do, and I lay it down..here it is...I TRUST YOU!"

Thank you JESUS that you care about me..An insignificant part of a giANT creation. YOU'RE SO AMAZING!

Look at the color I woke up to this morning!

I've experienced Jesus in a completely different way lately. I haven't wanted to blog I truly have just wanted to sit and spend time with JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went to a conference called World Mandate in Wako, Texas a couple of weekends ago and although it's cause controversy in my life about how the Spirit works in us with gifts I learned about the POWER of the Indwelling spirit in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since I've realized what the spirit is worth in me, my relationship with Jesus has become something incredibly different. There is limitless power through the gift of the Holy Spirit and I don't care who wants to fight with me about that.

Since I've been on that retreat Jesus has given me this boldness that I can't even with hold or suppress. There is no fear when walking with the Holy Spirit because He is EVERYTHING that MATTERS. I see and listen to all the people in my classes who don't have truth and I feel for them and feel that it is IMPERATIVE that I speak in class so that they may know what truth is! I'm overcome with sadness for the many college students who are mislead.

I'm in a human sexuality class and it's amazing even being in the heart of the bible belt how many 'christians" are having sex and think it's totally okay. DECIET from SATAN!!! I feel as though God has made me a pioneer for the people i don't even know to expose them to truth to set these precious people free... As the teacher rhetorically asked how many of you are having sex, I heard responses many times like "everybody" and the girl right next to me looked at me and said "I'm sure everyone is" and I looked at her and said I'm NOT!!!! and she said with compassion (sympathy for me) "well, I'm sure that will be really good for when you get married" I wanted to be like YESSSSSSSSSSSS it will be!! I wanted so badly for the teacher to say and who of you are not having sex so I could scream ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and give my explanation..which would be because

I want to give myself fully to marriage and one man because that's healthy for me emotionally and physically, and because I have the belief that Jesus gave us the gift of marriage to one man and one woman so we wouldn't have to emotionally and physically give away the most private parts of who we are repeatedly to different men and women. I can give it to one man and no one else so that intimacy is sacred. It's a flippin gift that most of us don't receive fully!!!!!!!!!

Maybe I'll have the chance to say it today...My heart beats heavily in that class to expose the truth.

I'm in love with the Holy Spirit! There is power in His name and my heart beat races when I can expose Him and I don't know where it came from!

I am making a rebuke against myself.

I wrote a blog earlier down that basically says the way to hear God is only through the scripture and not thoughts...

The Holy spirit has no limit to how He speaks.

HE SPEAKs in MANY WAYS!

Listen in silence

Newspring Church in South Carolina has helped me to fall in love with church.
The Pastor is Perry Noble.

You might be thinking how can you go to a church so far away.. well I actually attend online.

Newspring's Webservice
http://www.newspring.cc/webservice

I watch the service every week online and chat with people who are also listening to it.

These people live all over the United States and some who are watching are out of the country.

I just watched the last sermon 1/24/10

It was the church's 10th anniversary. I was so encouraged yet sad I couldn't be there to take Nicole.

I sincerely love this church. I found myself getting pumped and excited when Perry announced where I believe the 4th(??) campus was going to be.

AHHHH, I wish I could be a member there.

=)

This church is the 'real deal' in my opinion.

Check it out
Webservice times are
central: 10am, 1pm, and 5pm
eastern: 11am, 2pm, and 6pm
You won't be sorry!
http://www.newspring.cc/webservice