Saturday, February 27, 2010


"For Thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel. 'In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength." Isaiah 30:15

I met with a friend this week and together we are memorizing and dwelling on this verse. She is focusing on the rest while I focus on the trust. The two words go hand in hand.

To trust you must rest!!!

Rest in Jesus Christ because He ABSOLUTELY should be trusted!

He has seen everyday of my life before the first day even happened. (psalm 139)

To rest for me, means instead of thinking about what I should do, I pray in submission saying

"I don't know, but you do, and I lay it down..here it is...I TRUST YOU!"

Thank you JESUS that you care about me..An insignificant part of a giANT creation. YOU'RE SO AMAZING!


Thursday, February 11, 2010

Look at the color I woke up to this morning!


I've experienced Jesus in a completely different way lately. I haven't wanted to blog I truly have just wanted to sit and spend time with JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went to a conference called World Mandate in Wako, Texas a couple of weekends ago and although it's cause controversy in my life about how the Spirit works in us with gifts I learned about the POWER of the Indwelling spirit in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!
Since I've realized what the spirit is worth in me, my relationship with Jesus has become something incredibly different. There is limitless power through the gift of the Holy Spirit and I don't care who wants to fight with me about that.

Since I've been on that retreat Jesus has given me this boldness that I can't even with hold or suppress. There is no fear when walking with the Holy Spirit because He is EVERYTHING that MATTERS. I see and listen to all the people in my classes who don't have truth and I feel for them and feel that it is IMPERATIVE that I speak in class so that they may know what truth is! I'm overcome with sadness for the many college students who are mislead.

I'm in a human sexuality class and it's amazing even being in the heart of the bible belt how many 'christians" are having sex and think it's totally okay. DECIET from SATAN!!! I feel as though God has made me a pioneer for the people i don't even know to expose them to truth to set these precious people free... As the teacher rhetorically asked how many of you are having sex, I heard responses many times like "everybody" and the girl right next to me looked at me and said "I'm sure everyone is" and I looked at her and said I'm NOT!!!! and she said with compassion (sympathy for me) "well, I'm sure that will be really good for when you get married" I wanted to be like YESSSSSSSSSSSS it will be!! I wanted so badly for the teacher to say and who of you are not having sex so I could scream ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and give my explanation..which would be because

I want to give myself fully to marriage and one man because that's healthy for me emotionally and physically, and because I have the belief that Jesus gave us the gift of marriage to one man and one woman so we wouldn't have to emotionally and physically give away the most private parts of who we are repeatedly to different men and women. I can give it to one man and no one else so that intimacy is sacred. It's a flippin gift that most of us don't receive fully!!!!!!!!!

Maybe I'll have the chance to say it today...My heart beats heavily in that class to expose the truth.

I'm in love with the Holy Spirit! There is power in His name and my heart beat races when I can expose Him and I don't know where it came from!

Monday, February 1, 2010

I am making a rebuke against myself.
I wrote a blog earlier down that basically says the way to hear God is only through the scripture and not thoughts...
The Holy spirit has no limit to how He speaks.
HE SPEAKs in MANY WAYS!
Listen in silence