I spend so much time processing and analyzing my future...I love to hear other women's story so I can play their role and know exactly how my life will turn out (sarcasm and...haha..this is a dumb thing to do)
I have so many expectations for what should happen with the man I'm gonna marry. How he should act? What he is interested in? What his relationship with God should look like? Really none of that stuff is that bad to think about...I really just can't imagine that process without Jesus...
Ahhh...Thank you Jesus that you know my heart!
I know nothing about who I am going to marry except HE LOVES JESUS.. Don't look at that and think Cop out...
My heart is so excited just thinking about how much knowledge of the word and wisdom he might have from His walk and love for Jesus.
I mean I could go on...and on..and on... about how this excites me.
So yes, I have big expectations for this man to know the Bible and know it well and of course know Jesus and know Him so well!!

I'm praying for him wherever the devil he is! :)

With 18 hours of school Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and being involved in an accountability group on Monday nights, FCA on Tuesdays, RUF on Tuesdays, church on Wednesdays, Bible study on Fridays, church on sunday, and many other appointments with girls throughout my week.. I literally feel like I'm on a rocket ship to learning about Jesus. It's simply the greatest blessing to be single and in college right now. I realize I will never have this kind of season again...

Although, I am one who loves to look deep into the future, I cannot rush these days of singleness. It is truly a gift! Oh man, He is romancing me! He is! I love it!

I love you Jesus..
Please meet me today and fill me up with your Holy Spirit!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS

FRIENDS

I'm in love with my friends.. I feel completely blessed....

I have the best family and the coolest friends and I don't know why? How am I so lucky?

I'm serious...It's so good to sit here and reflect on how blessed

I am to have all these wonderful people in my life......

These are my sisters and my best friends... Will we ever be closer than we are now?!

How long do we have together until we're all too busy to come to Mom and Dad's to hang out and spend the night without your husbands and family! :)

I'm sure not much longer but holy cow, I know I'll forever look back and think about these days...

We're family we can't get too far!

This is my life long friend/cousin...It gets to a point where you know someone so well you really can't not be the person's close friend... Lacey has always been there! ALWAYS! I've always been the jealous type with her...I've always been jealous of any friends shes ever had that were not me... haha...Our life walk has taken different paths, but it really doesn't matter.

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.....Accountability..... These three I met in college. Heather and I process our life's situations together and connect on that spiritual level.. We totally have similar hearts....Kaycee is that hard truth that sometimes hurts to receive but I sooooo love that she will without a doubt be honest with me. Molly is that quiet conviction, she doesn't have to say anything and I see truth...

These are my very favorite friends...My college buds...Not too girly, so chill, so funny, not too much alike, but still so similar...

Sophie makes me laugh really hard and I just love her disposition and servant heart.

I love one on one time with Marie, that's the way to get to know her..(wanna get coffee a.k.a we need to talk)

Megan has a sensitive heart!

Rachel knows mostly everything...the facts...

I'm so blessed this isn't even it...

Jessica from class...I love her!

and my other friend Krystle from class...

I FEEL SOOOOOO BLESSED...

My heart is warm... Thank you JESUS...

I haven't always had close friends..There was a time when I had what felt like none, but JESUS. I realize Jesus has called us to friends, but I also loved the time without any as well. It wasn't as fun, I guess.. but I did grow in prayer and QUALITY time with Jesus. I would never take it back. After that friendless time was over, I missed it... I missed depending heavily on Jesus for friendship...

So no matter what state you are with friends or with no friends..You're blessed!

Regardless go spend time with Jesus in your room with the door shut and pour out the joys, the longings, the burdens, the prayers,and everything..

Their isn't a better friend than Jesus.

ALIVE

(Sometimes I feel like Jesus wants me to draw in my alone time with Him!)

My time with Jesus has been so ALIVE in the last few days.

Scripture has had that common theme and people I respect have mentioned that theme in our converstion.

TRUST...

Could I possibly be hearing 'this' from You?

Did I really hear 'it' from You?

Over a year has past of my 'hearing' God. I've tried to fight a specific calling for a while now.

I just can't believe this could be from God..

but I feel Him repeatedly saying the same thing in my conversations with Him...

But I'm so scared to believe!

"What if I'm wrong?"

I am constantly asking people how they hear from God because what I feel Him saying cannot REALLY be what He is saying..could it?

I've cried multiple times thinking I've been deceived by the enemy because what I'm hearing just couldn't be right ...(HOW COULD JESUS LET ME BE DECEIVED for so long though?)

NO.

HE KNOWS ME AND I KNOW HIM. HE CAN HAVE MY FEARS BECAUSE TODAY I'M BELIEVING IN WHAT HE HAS BEEN PUTTING IN MY HEART OVER AND OVER. HE WILL BE WITH ME UNTIL THE VERY END AND THERE IS NO FEAR IN BELIEVING AN AMAZING GOD!

"For the Lord will not forsake His people; He will not abandon His People." Psalm 94:14

I cling to His promise!

Jesus, it won't be easy but I'm believing until you say something else! I'm taking the next three days to be in serious prayer..GOD DIRECT MY HEART!

"The Lord will Fulfill His purpose for me, Your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of Your hand."

Psalm 138:8

Jesus, won't You hold my hand!